Scorpio
was told by Draco
     To tell no one
about his middle name,

   Which is Harry.

WELL it's been a while since last time aye~?

it's been a wild ride recently aaand it's gonna get better.



i can promise you that.

I think...it's safe to say... that...
I'M SICK OF ALL THIS SHIT.

Seriously, I heard everything Nick said and i'm pretty sure i know about it too. I'm sitting just about on the same line. One more little poke and i'm done. Down that abyss and gone.

You should all know that by now.

They ask me am I ok
they ask me if I'm happy
are they asking me that because of the shit that's been thrown at me
or am I just a little snappy
and they genuinely care.

  -Eminem

Welp, just like Nick said: "They ask you "you Ok?" and you say "Yeah I'm fine" but no of course you're not fine. Pfft you're not doing well at all. Something's happening but you hide it. You wear a mask."

Why... does that ... relate...to everyone?

Being insecure. It sucks. It makes you feel so shit. Self harm kicks in. 

Found this off Tumblr:

It sometimes sucks having a thing with someone so attractive.

Sure, they’re yours.. But there’s always people flirting with them. Someone who wants to get in between you two. And that’s when the jealousy and insecurity comes in. You don’t feel worth having them. You get jealous of every single person that talks to them. You just feel like shit.

Huh. All black n white... I guess for now, I'll just stick with the card tricks and my ukulele.

and-- oh fuck school = ="
And i'm just sitting here on the computer listening to my hag of a grandmother rub in how i have to go to school...

and hey, i thought i needed something more...optimistic so here you go

 ;D Love you babe ♥

A la prochaine~

I am nothing without her~

Hey

I'm sorry.

Huh

So yeah i figured this out a while ago but i guess i just didn't realise it...

I suck.

I don't know how many people have told me that or something close to it because i've actually lost count.

I'm your stereotypical Depressed Musician if you want. Which is why, I figured, I don't talk to people much and vice versa. People can get a big frustrated when they talk to me. I mean not always but...yeah

No ones fault but mine and my blood. It's genetic = ="

I just counted 34...+3

There was this guy, he was asked to go to an asylum to cure this patient. All the guy said were these words:
I'm sorry.
I was wrong.
I need you.
I love you.
Thank you.
He repeated these for weeks and finally the patient was cured and in a stable mental condition. Just goes to show how powerful words can be. I found that therewere a few of those words that I said quite often.

So... I'm gonna go write in my diary so I don't release all this shit into public...

A la prochaine~

WELL
i ended up actually sleeping last night :P
i still woke up at like...8:00 in the morning so that's ok i guess. The other guys didn't sleep until like 3 or 4 they're just sittin around chatting for the whole night...

they all woke up at 7 this morning = ="

  I watched Jackass 3 with the boys and DUDE it was disgusting....but fucking hilarious at the same time XD i...don't think i'll go into too much detail = =

so i went and watched transformers 3 wif Cathie, Crystal and Maxine~
when we got there the seats were all full D: so we bought tickets for Cars 2 and slipped into the transformers theater like ninjas XD so it started at around 2:30 but it finished at like...5:30.  3. frikkin. hours.

yeah so i had to kinda limp home after that.
i say limp cuz i busted my knee either: playing basketball without warming up (not likely) or doing a spin kick without a warmup...both of which are kinda stupid. still, i'm typing this blog with an icepack on my knee...so yeah.

tired tired tired tired motherf***ing tired

contrary to what i normally say, i'm actually gonna sleep early tonight. by early i mean 10:30
or 9:30

...in the morning :P loljk but seriously i need some sleep. gonna be pumped for You Time 2mrl XD even if i have to limp the whole thing~

OH RIGHT yeah, my bro and his friends were trying to blow up a bottle of coke with one aspirin tablet
it failed.

but yeah that should be all...until next time~~

A la prochaine ;D

CHYEAH XD
i got a ukulele todayy~~ i got recently inspired to play it when i saw this vid and the fact that so frkkin many people play it at our school kinda supported it. I ended up playing it for about 5 hours almost straight. so that was pretty awesome :P

if you want to see the video you can see it here

so yeah i've been practicing handstands and cartwheels lately. not just  like the boringly normal cartwheels but like one hand cartwheels then eventually no handers :P but for the handstands i just plan on being able to hold a handstand for at least 30seconds then... yeah chair handstands? then practicing ... and practicing... then moving onto flips XD

^ that might take a while.

Huh so someone kinda realised that nostalgia ain't what it use to be :P that's lack of knowledge for you :/
(referring to me...)

Haha so i now have +1 stalker~~ i don't actually know him but i just know that he's a year younger than me and goes to a school that i've been to a billion times :P LOL that's kinda all i know.

you know...i don't think my brother should've started using facebook...it took him only 2 n a bit days to get to rank 14...it took me 3 weeks to get to rank 8...or something like that anyway. but yeah he's gonna get hooked onto that like eminem on chronic = =" i'm starting to use it less n less :P

so i've been staying up past 1 for the last few days...except for wednesday, i slept at around 10...-ish. but right now it's 12:15 and i don't feel too sleepy... i SHOULD probably get some sleep cause ima go see a movie wif cathie 2mrl~~ XD transformers 3

i think i might stop there now and actually catch some z's~

sorry for the lack of gifs...i'm on my dad's laptop which just happened to be a year older than me = ="

so yeah...

A la prochaine~