yeah so i guess my previous post was pretty much right.

Things have been going... downhill since friday night

just dead shit tired and family arguments....

Even my dad said i was a burden

I guess i am.




-sigh-

Laissez-moi mourir

hmmm

It seems to me...that every time i blog, i seem to be wanting to hit something or breaking someone's neck.

Hmph

Great so i think i'll just do a quick run of the week

2 concerts, a competition, exams (one when where i actually felt like throwing up afterwards), and then there was yesterday
So like any other saturday, i wake up at around 7 to get ready for an 8:30 piano lesson. afterwards, i have a cello lesson from 10:30 till 11:30 and from there i go straight to QYO for about 3 hours. 5 hours in total. yesterday, though was special. I was a guest at a wedding banquet. My parents picked me up late (as usual) but just as we thought nothing could've gone worse, they did (murphy's law)
i've finished getting changed after being rushed frantically by my mum who was standing right outside the toilet door, i come out looking ridiculous but it was ok. we're about halfway to the hotel when i realise my ipod's gone.
great

gone :P

i kinda let it go...after spending another hour looking for the damn thing all over OMB.

wedding went on for like...ages. We got home at about 11:30 but i didn't sleep until about 1 or 2
...
can't say it's a first.

Huh

Welp on the upside, i watched about 6 episodes of the mentalist today~~    XD

Alright, I'm out

kthxbye

i should just make a blog for how depressed i normally am. just to express myself.

i should just die really.

what am i worth anyway?





Or maybe i just suck at being human in general...and at being a boyfriend.
But seriously


i mean if people knew if i was dying, what difference would that make?

k

i'm finished

I swear, I solemnly swear

That this

Was not

My

Decision.

i live in a prison family.

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK?!

WHAT KIND OF SPED PICKS UP A PACK OF PROFESSIONAL CARDS AND GLUES TWO CARDS TOGETHER??!!




great so i was about to say something...then i forgot = ="

right. i'm gearing up for a bit of a runaway XD

If my parents end up letting me go 2mrl then i don't need to run but if they don't, well, i'll run :P I guess "to defy, is to know" i'm gonna test that tomorrow~

kthxbye~

Or i could actually die...that would be a lot easier~~

Gahh, so tired = =" I had an accounting exam and about 1237896453045375898190456 more to go...

LOL go die bitch

hmmph


pfft idgaf

fuck it, im gonna go watch some mentalist XD

Welp~

Well yesterday... I heard one of the darkest stories ever...irl
and she said it was pathetic... to be honest, i thought it was pretty...sad
I mean, what kinda guy does shit like that? *shakes head* it actually made me think...what might've happened to that guy in the past to make him do that?

i've been thinking over it a lot recently...

hmmmm

I think...i'm gonna start...analysing things verrry closely.

I WAS GONNA WRITE SOMETHING REALLY IMPORTANT THEN I FORG--

oh...

great, so...a blue-tongued lizard has taken a shit on our bathroom floor...

and he's not paying rent D:<
LOLjks i dun mind anywayz~~

..as long as he cleans up after himself = =

FUCK it's cold. Actually, it's not too bad, it's just that my lips are getting...dry? i dunno but at least i get to wear my hoodies~

well, how does that look? I took it sometime last year but i didn't bother publishing it...

now, seeing as Cathie told me to "check out" Chuck Bass...I did.

He seems, to me, like a bit of a jerk :P

anyway, ima go think some more...or i could watch the mentalist...

fuckit, i'm gonna go to sleep :P

-(another) sigh-

So i figured...i've done quite a few things but some i won't do...

                     THIS^^

Way too fucking true. I dunno what to think because my head will immediately kick into 

-sigh-

So here I am at 8:30 in the morning, thinking how shit boring it's gonna be today.

When it shouldn't be.

Today = 3months for me n Cathie ~ <3

i was planning on going out for...a movie? instead of staying at home doing jackshit.

Fuck.

FuckFuckFuckFUckFUck. My head's getting mixed up with my heart and everything's just getting complicated but the sad and depressing things is I understand all of it.

I'm gonna be all weird for the next week...maybe.

I'll blog later...

PLANS

I. HAVE A PLAN.

because i'm bored shitless even though i have stuff to do. and because i'm just... tired.

so i'm gonna go along and write something about them based on psychological analysis. NOT on my personal opinion but analysis through observation. Example: Such and Such wears a ring on his finger and is constantly  playing with it and changing standing positions while playing with a pen in his hand. He's standing in line for a job interview at Maccas. This, you can tell, is his first interview. The occasional biting of the lip comes to support this. The habit is then brought up from something else. At one change of position, scars can be just been seen, signifying family/relationship issues, confusion, etc..

For the sake of psychological experimenting (and other reasons), I've actually cut myself to...observe...things...

Yeah so, that's how bored i freaking am. at the same time, i'm gonna continue to watch the mentalist and play blackjack at the same time :P

HEY. GUESS WHAT.

I cleaned up my Room XDDDD
now it looks...REALLY clean. Threw out some stuff i didn't need and added a poster, a speaker system and more space for exercise :P

AND.

MY braces are GONE. So now my teeth look surprisingly smooth and straight.

Should be about it :D

kthxbye